Exams + No Beautiful Boy = :(

I'm not doing so well.

Haven't properly spent time with the Boyfriend in nearly two weeks and it's been two days now since we realised that we're both going to be stupid busy for the next four weeks. FOUR WEEKS!!! I get palpitations just thinking about it.

I need to study. My exams actually matter this year. They're worth 15% of my degree and considering I threw the first 15% out the window I think I should be studying by now, but I can't.

I need a holiday, or just time off to do NOTHING. To clear my mind. I have long since lost the luxury of being able to think of nothing. I try to work through coursework all day, then I dream about it at night. When I'm not thinking about college work I think about the four long weeks until I get to spend time with the Boyfriend again. Then I worry that he'll be so burned out he'll do his crazy thing where he doesn't do anything or see anyone, and yes, anyone would include me.

I'm no poet, so I'll leave it in the hands of William Henry Davies. This is one of my favourites :)

What is this life if, full of care,
We have no time to stand and stare.

No time to stand beneath the boughs
And stare as long as sheep or cows.

No time to see, when woods we pass,
Where squirrels hide their nuts in grass.

No time to see, in broad daylight,
Streams full of stars like skies at night.

No time to turn at Beauty’s glance,
And watch her feet, how they can dance.

No time to wait till her mouth can
Enrich that smile her eyes began.

A poor life this if, full of care,
We have no time to stand and stare.